Saturday, February 19, 2005

In Xanadu Did Kubla Khan ....

Just saw this draft in my mail client ...I had saved this post some 2-3 weeks back for further edition and just forgot to post it ... Well finally I am posting it.. Dreams... one of the most fascinating and mysterious things that God has ever created... and I am experiencing a lot of it, these days [maybe becoz I am sleeping a lot :) ] Usually I forget my dreams.. but today it was little different ... As soon as I went to bed, I fell asleep .. and some magical and illogical things started to appear in front of my eyes... at first I saw some very senseless dreams (thank god that I don't remember anything of it now), but after some time all that chaos disappeared .. and my dreams started taking sensible shapes.. There I saw myself going toward a big lake ... it was very much like the big pond, back in my village, except one thing that it was surrounded by lots of greeneries ... well I started swimming there... after some time .. I heard a very familiar voice of this girl ... I turned around and saw her [taking her name here, may create a big controversy here :) ]... she too had come to swim there... so we two started swimming... After some time I heard her shouting : Help ! help !! she had gone too far and had started drowning in the water... Well I saved her with my heroic effort but this is not important the most interesting things were yet to come ... so, I saved her and was giving her the artificial breathing; suddenly she opened her eyes... and saw me.. and then like a typical Hindi movie... we got lost in each others eyes :) .. Finally when both of us came to our senses ... we said good bye to each other and went back to our homes... This didn't stop here ... the very same evening one of my friends came to meet me and said that she wants to talk to me [surprisingly he was aware of everything]... So we met near this bridge on the river [surprisingly that lake has turned into a river :) ] We had some formal conversation for some time and then suddenly she said "Rakish, I love you !! " [ ;(( for the first time I heard this sentence from a girl and that too in my dream :(( ] Well, at that time I tried to show a little modesty [basically stupidity] and said her that this thing is not gonna work between her and me [what a big ass I am :( ] and finally consoled her to go back to her home... But after she left, I started have this guilt feeling, that I broke her heart and that I am never going to get another girl like this ... so finally after too much thinking... I called her [ I had the latest camera phone of Niki in my hand :) ]. We talked for an eternity [he he who cares for the cell phone bill in the dream] and finally we fixed a meeting again in the coffee shop near that bridge [How did Batista come in my dreams ??] I was waiting outside the coffee shop when I saw her coming... wow what a scene it was. Very much like the seen of "Jo Jeeta Wohi Sikander", where that girl comes to meet the bro of Amie in the end of the song "Pehla Nasha"... OK she comes and gives me a gr8 hug... and again both of us see in each others eyes and make a move to kiss each other... and suddenly BANG, BANG... some body from this Zaalim Zamana was banging my door... trying to wake me up for the breakfast... [Yaar, ek minute aur ruk jate to tera kya chala jata] Well, I don't remember the person who wake me up... neither do I remember anything that I did that day... but its almost a month now and I remember that dream as if I have just woken up from the sleep...

Thursday, February 17, 2005

Back in action again ...

Its been 3 days since I posted on my blog... well there wasn't any special reason for that ... may be because I was a little low lately... another thing was I didn't have much to write .. even now I am not able to think what to write... but just to maintain the sheer sprit of blogging I am here on my blogger dashboard typing arbitrarily... Well, I saw a couple of movies in last 3 days. That includes Page 3, Godfather, Bad Santa, Bap numbari beta das numbari, Roti... Page 3 is cool... I m not in the mood of writing a review here. Utkarsh has already done this here . Godfather is superb, no wonder its IMDB no.1 ... this was my 6th attempt to see this movie... in all my earlier attempts I never got beyond the wedding ceremony... The other movies were just time pass... Roti has some good songs .. but the "Latka Jhatkas" of Kakaji are no longer tolerable... enough for now ...

Sunday, February 13, 2005

Get Romantic .. with Google

Happy valentines day
google_valentine There is a love letter contest going on, in our batch ... with the help of judges I finally managed to get hold of this entry.. no no its not mine... its Abhinav's... I hope Abhinav doesn't mind putting it here ... here it goes PS: The final results are not yet out Dear ................................ , Today is Valentine's Day .. the day used by lovers all over the world to tell their love what they feel about them. So here I am .. trying to tell you what I haven't told anyone. I have been trying to say this for a really long time .. It may sound a little awkward to you, being surrounded all the time by people who seem to like you .. and you seem to like their attention too .. but I haven't been able to get myself to talk to you because of the simple reason that I thought I would falter at the final moment. I have tried so many times to talk to you, but every time the thought of ruining what we have presently ( which is just friendship ) has kept me from doing it. But I guess now it is about time that I gather courage to take the relationship to the next level. I don't want to be just a friend, I don't want to just an acquaintance. I want to be the guy who comes home to you everyday, the guy who helps you through the difficult periods of your life, the guy who you come to when you face some problem, the guy who is not just present physically with you all the time, but is in your heart. I want to make it clear now itself, that it won't matter to me now, what your reply is. May be even after reading this letter, and knowing how I feel about you, you would decide to spend your life with someone else. But what is important for me is that you should be happy. I don't care what happens to "us" but "u" should always find what you deserve and If you think I am the perfect person for you, nothing would make me happier, but a "no" ( though, would hurt ) won't ruin me. I have gone through a large number of years of my life, without you and liking you. I am sure I can go through the rest of my life the same way. Though tough, but I can handle it. Just the thought that I love you and you are happy would be enough to sail through the vast vacant ocean of life. I am not sure how much this letter has helped me, to get your attention, but it certainly has take the load off me. Now I am pretty sure that whatever your reply is, it won't be based on an imaginative guess, but a written proof of my love. Although you may decide to spend your life with someone else, I won't be able to convince myself to like anyone ever. Most probably if you say no, I will be spending my life all alone. You are the only person who has touched my heart and soul and I can't think of anyone who is more perfect for me than you are. The very thought of you makes me happy and if you give me chance I will spend the rest of my life trying to make you feel the same way. Just remember that I love you and will always continue to do so. Yours' and only your's Abhinav